Fix my eyes on You Jesus as I run this race, help me fight this fight of faith.

Here I am
At your feet
Crying out to you
Draw me near
Hold me close
Lord I wait on you
For you're my greatest love
You're my comforter and strength
You're the first
You're the last
You're my guiding light

I will run
I will soar
On eagle's wings
As I wait
On you Lord
My strength is restored
Fix my eye on you Jesus
As I run this race
Help me fight this fight of faith

(I wanted to bold the things God encouraged me but I ended up having every single word bold :X)

January was when I was shaken yet trying to put a holy front during weekends and playing with the world during weekdays.
February was when I really stumbled and decided to turn to the world, that is also when the devil shouts horray in my life.
March was when I was really high playing in the world, wanting to try all sorts of things.
April was when I was getting a bit tired but still in my high mood.
May was when I looked back at the 2 months without God and thought that I will go nowhere with that kind of life.
June was when God took me back and bought me back to where I belong.
July was when I slowly get back on track with God and really made the decision to dedicate my whole life to God and choose life.
August was when I was struggling with my friends and working real hard to make a difference but failed many times.
September was when I commit my life to God through water baptism.
October was when God fixed the leak and took away the hidden sin. God moved in my heart and gave me back that passionate heart for Him.
November was when God break all the things that I know that He needs to break.

December was when I really laid down my life and let God take control of next year. And really wanting to make a difference in my community next year.

Well, looking back one month by one month. I can say that 2008 has been a very special year for me where I took up a lot of challenges and went through every one of them. I may gave up in the starting but I still claimed back victory in the end. I guess God fulfilled one of my expectations which is to end my year well. I really thank God for His faithfulness, goodness, love, kindness and grace. I think if not been for Him, I really wouldn't know what I'm gonna be like now.

Its gonna be January in 1 day time and I'm gonna go back to my real world and face the different giants in my life. God has been preparing me for war by encouraging me with a lot of verses and I think the giants that I'm gonna face is gonna be real big that I need so much verses to cover me. I really don't want to come back crying to God saying that "I've lost" or even worst, "I gave up". I want to come back laughing all the way at the devil and sharing with God what weapons I used to beat all the giants. I know that God is gonna help me fight.

I really hope that I will cling on to You even when I'm in the most difficult time. Just like how You've prayed for qingde, pray for me too. A year of breakthroughs, a year of venture, a year of transformation, a year of molding, a year of learning, a year of victories and a year of faith. I'm gonna look forward and I want to stand and testify about your goodness in the same time, same date next year.

I'm gonna pen down my expectations of next year and see God fulfilling it one by one ;D I'm really really eggcited, how many eggs are excited? Thousands, millions and billions of them!

My field is ready for you to rain down.

Mr. Jesus, I'm ready for the things that is coming up.

Thank You for this love, Lord.

Picture blog. Retarded and super retarded pics coming up. Please laugh when you see your retarded face :X

my very beloved team mates, anyway where's junjin?

he's here but not there.

haiya, what marigold -.-

he looks blur, I think he is.

EAST ZONE AH!

pink is a manly colour (;

siao group, where's shuhui?

there she is! :D

Turn your eyes upon Jesus.

I just felt the prompt but I don't know its for who, but it is surely for someone out there.

Turn your eyes upon Jesus
Look full in His wonderful face
And the things of the earth will grow strangely dim
In the light of His glory and grace

Turn your eyes upon Jesus
Look full in His wonderful face
And the things of the earth will grow strangely dim
In the light of His glory and grace

I have come to bow down at Your feet Lord Jesus
In Your presence there is fullness of joy
There is nothing there is no one to compare with You
I take pleasure in worshiping You Lord

I have come to bow down at Your feet Lord Jesus
In Your presence there is fullness of joy
There is nothing there is no one to compare with You
I take pleasure in worshiping
I take pleasure in worshiping
I take pleasure in worshiping You Lord

All of my days are held in Your hands, crafted into Your perfect plan

Something wordy for today.

Youth camp. Yes! Its tingfang posting about youth camp. Ok, a bit out of mind at this moment.

R.A.W camp this year has been enjoyable except the food part, I mean its tiring to have rice everyday right? But its still alright when we went out to cook but the food is not enough! And and and I enjoyed the games with my "heaven and earth" team, its really crazy with them around. I'm so shocked when we get 3rd prize in the games part because in all the games, our team just wanted to have fun and not caring about the points part. And we always get negative points if not we will just merely have 1point. HAHA, so its really a miracle to get 3rd. (I think its the watermelon that won us points :D)

The services is also really nice with pastor Daniel around and God really moved in the camp. I've seen my life being changed in certain areas, claiming victories in certain struggles and God has spoken words into my life too. I mean, God is just so good during the services, His presence is always there hovering around the place. After letting God to speak to me in so many things, I want to see God beginning to use me in the places He has placed me in. :D I'm up for the challenges ahead of me, some is already beginning but I believe there are more tougher times as I continue to journey. (I suddenly feel so proud of David :X)

I have fun sleeping with my room mates and I enjoyed doing devotion with my house mates.

Lastly, I want to thank God for teaching me so many things out of this camp, more than the things that I've learned in last year's Ignite camp. I hope it will be the same for next year.

Pictures coming up soon.

You are the light that is leading me to the place where I find peace again.

Daddy.. I thought I was set free from all my fears. But how come I became so fearful and anxious when people starts to remind me about it or talk about it? I surrender it all.

"I've tried so hard
Searched many times
Hoping to heal this heart of mine
But still I'm lost, so powerless
I'm crying out for something real."

I'll post about R.A.W other time.

I can only bow down and say You're awesome in this place.

Flying away for R.A.W camp in 10hours time!
Rawr rawr rawr. I'll be back on 18th dec.
Those who missed it, you better kiss it (the wall)!

Ohmy, I screwed up everything today.

God, deepen this relationship. I'm not satisfied at where I am today and I want more of you. Visions and dreams that I want to receive, open my eyes to see.

Hello! You're doing for the audience of one.

Quiz Bee in 8hours time!
R.A.W camp in 1 day time!
Christmas party is next saturday..
LTS skit is next sunday..

OhMY, I'm just so excited for every single thing even though a bit stressed up and busy. But well, I love those things that I'm busy doing.

His arms are open wide.

Ohmy, I had ridiculous dreams.
But fun enough, hoho!

Break my heart for what break Yours, I experienced it.

"I slit my wrist because of you."
"Crying becomes a habit for me every night."
"How I wish I can die."
"I hate life."

Whatever words and sentences you can find in people's blog and personal messages. How chaos, how broken has the world became? When will their eyes be open to see there's this Someone who can stop all misery and sorrow? When will they come to realize that they have Someone whom they can confide in and will love them forever? When will their hearts be open to receive this Person who is perfect and willing to take up every challenges in life with them? Its never too good to be true.

If Jesus isn't true, then why people in the world still worship and praise His name? If He isn't true, then why christians love to share with people about Jesus? If God isn't true, then why will people outside and me myself love Him so much? If He isn't true, I won't be posting so much things which seems like "holy crap" to you guys to inspire you about how good and wonderful He is.
ShuHui's beautiful example : "A salesman have to try the product before he can sells the product and tell others about how good it is. If the salesman have never tried it before and try to praise how excellent the product is, no point selling." Just like the words ChenLong say in the advertisement about that shampoo.

I've tasted and I've seen. His goodness, His love, His everything.

Draw closer.

Yeap, its doulos. I enjoyed myself on the ship shopping for books and touring around the ship. Are you wondering what is this ship all about? Well, its a ship where christians are gathered to serve in the ship. Doulos is Greek for a bondservant of Christ. Doulos is built 2 years after titanic and its the world's oldest active ship, it has gone through 94 birthdays already. Can you imagine the first time titanic sailed, it already sank but doulos actually sailed for 94years? I think God is just so good.
Doulos travels around the world to bring knowledge, help and hope to different people and they themselves experience something new from that particular country. The people living in this ship is from 40 over kinds of countries so sometimes their accent may sounds funny to each other, hoho.
HAHA, I got listen to what Analyn say ok!
Its gonna be open till this sunday, so catch the boat before it leaves singapore. They have really nice books, I have already bought 2 of them so grab yours now (:

God is just so so so good that no words can express :D

Cross over the cross and reach God!

I suddenly feel so blessed with so many crappy friends.
I suddenly feel like shopping the whole world.
I suddenly feel like doing all the things I want to do.
I suddenly feel like going to school straightaway.
I suddenly feel so bored because my friends are too crappy.
I suddenly feel so lost without knowing what to type next.
I suddenly feel so SLEEPY, finally ah.
I started typing from 2.22AM and now the time is 2.35AM.
So I should be bored and sleepy enough! Goodnight folks.