And every door that slams in my face, I will offer up in prayer.

I saw this somewhere but I just couldn't recall where I found it. The saying goes like this, "Only when you are near to a person than you will be able to feel the person's heartbeat. So draw near to God, so that you would be able to feel His heartbeat." I totally agree.

God's heartbeat was for the people who were lost.

God, if I have drift away from You and couldn't feel your heartbeat more. Draw me back close to You, let my heart goes all out for people. Its been 6months, I have failed so many times but I know I have to pick myself up again. Light that fire again, the burning flame when I first stepped into the school.

Let it not be a lip service anymore. Take this life, You can use it all.

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Like a rose, trampled on the ground.

Home Sweet Home!

Yeapyeap, TingFang survived through a 3days 2nights camp in Sarimbun Camp. Can you imagine sleeping in tents where you need to squeeze with so many people (for my tent la -.-) AND than, when you know that there is a bug on your leg yet you don't dare to make big movements because you are afraid you might wake others?! Having no lights in your tents and must use torchlight to pack your stuffs and bathing without taking off your clothes for 2 days!!!!!! That was what I went through incredibily.

Well, but I did enjoy things in the camp. Like the night hiking with ChenShin infront of me, being so noisy yet so funny! Sliding into the milo pond, kayaking even though I got injured, campfire night. I think I was thankful for the serene environment to do my devotion and the scenery was very nice too, with all the trees and grass around me. Overall, the camp was great and it did made a mark in my secondary school life.

Thumbs up!

I stand here before You,

My cry is that I wanna see God work greater this week.

Did You rise the sun for me?
Or paint a million stars that I might Know Your majesty?

Road of life.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

The road to Success is not straight. There is a curve called Failure, a loop called Confusion, speed bumps called Friends, red lights called Enemies, caution lights called Family. You will have flats called Studies. But, if you have a spare tire called Determination, an engine called Perseverance, insurance called Faith, a driver called Jesus, you will make it to a place called Success.

Capture my heart again,

If God is a bus, are you the crowd who is just so kiasu (as in excited) to get up the bus?

Come as you are, no jacket required.

I shook my head in disbelief. This couldn’t be the right place. After all, I couldn't possibly be welcome here. I had been given an invitation several times, by several different people, and had finally decided to see what this place was all about. But, this just couldn’t be the right place. Quickly, I glanced down at the invitation that clutched in my hand. I scanned past the words, "Come as you are. No jacket required," and found the location.

Yes, I was at the right place. I peered through the window again and saw a room of people whose faces seemed to glow with joy. All were neatly dressed, adorned in fine garments and appeared strangely clean as they dined at this exquisite restaurant. Ashamed, I looked down at my own tattered and torn clothing, covered in stains. I was dirty, in fact, filthy.

A foul smell seemed to consume me and I couldn’t shake the grime that clung to my body. As I turned around to leave, the words from the invitation seemed to leap out at me, "Come as you are. No jacket required."

I decided to give it a shot. Mustering up every bit of courage I could find, I opened the door to this restaurant and walked up to a man standing behind a podium. Your name, sir?" he asked me with a smile. "Daniel F. Renken," I mumbled without looking up. I thrust my hands deep into my pockets, hoping to conceal their stains. He didn't seem to notice the filth that I was covered in and he continued, "Very good, sir. A table is reserved in your name. Would you like to be seated?" I couldn’t believe what I heard! A grin broke out on my face and I said, "Yes, of course! "He led me to a table and, sure enough, there was a placard with my name written on it in a deep, dark red.

As I browsed over a menu, I saw many delightful items listed. There were things like, "peace," "joy," "blessings," "confidence," "assurance," "hope," "love," "faith," and "mercy." I realized that this was no ordinary restaurant! I flipped the menu back to the front in order to see where I was. "God's Grace," was the name of this place!

The man returned and said, "I recommend the 'Special of the Day'." With it, you are entitled to heaping portions of everything on this menu." You've got to be kidding! I thought to myself. You mean, I can have ALL of this! "What is the 'Special of the Day,' I asked with excitement ringing in my voice. "Salvation," was his reply. "I'll take it," I practically cried out. Then, as quickly as I made that statement, the joy left my body. A sick, painful ache jerked through my stomach and tears filled my eyes. Between my sobs I said, "Mister, look at me. I'm dirty and nasty. I'm unclean and unworthy of such things. I'd love to have all of this, but, I Just can't afford it."

Undaunted, the man smiled again. "Sir, your check has already been taken care of by that Gentleman over there," he said pointing to the front of the room. "His Name is Jesus."

Turning, I saw a man whose very presence seemed to light the room. He was almost too much to look at. I found myself walking towards Him and in shaking voice I whispered, "Sir, I'll wash the dishes or sweep the floors or take out the trash. I'll do anything I can do to repay you for all of this." He opened His arms and said with a smile, "Son, all of this is yours if you just come unto Me. Ask Me to clean you up and I will. Ask Me to take away the stains and it is done. Ask Me to allow you to feast at My table and you will eat. Remember, the table is reserved in your name. All you must do is accept this gift that I offer you."

Astonished, I fell at His feet and said, "Please, Jesus. Please clean up my life. Please change me and seat me at Your table and give me this new life." Immediately, I heard the words, "It is finished." I looked down and white robes adorned my squeaky clean body. Something strange and wonderful had happened. I felt new, like a weight had been lifted, and I found myself seated at His table.

"The 'Special of the Day' has been served," the Lord said to me. "Salvation is yours." We sat and talked for a great while and I so enjoyed the time that I spent with Him. He told me, me of all people, that He would like me to come back as often as I liked for another helping from God's Grace. He made it clear that He wanted me to spend as much time with Him as possible.

As it drew near time for me to go back outside into the "real world," He whispered to me softly, "And Daniel, I am with you always." And then, He said something to me that I will never forget. He said, "My child, Do you see these empty tables throughout this room?" "Yes, Lord. I see them. What do they mean?" I replied. "These are reserved tables, but the individuals whose names are on each placards have not accepted their invitations to dine. Would you be so kind as to hand out these invitations to those who have not joined us yet?" Jesus asked. "Of course," I said with excitement as I picked up the invitations. "Go ye therefore into all nations," He said as I turned to leave. I walked into God’s Grace dirty and hungry. Stained in sin. My righteousness as filthy rags. And Jesus cleaned me up. I walked out a brand new man . . . robed in white, His righteousness. And so, I'll keep my promise to my Lord. I'll go.

I'll spread the Word.

I'll share the Gospel . . .

I'll hand out the invitations.

And I’ll start with you. Have you been to God's Grace? There's a table reserved in your name, and here's your invitation . . . "Come as you are. No jacket required."

Where the love lasts forever.

考试了!!

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Can't live by what I feel.

I am really frustrated by inconsiderate people.

I was on bus and the bus was packed like sardine and it was a new wheel chair bound bus than there's seats at the side of the bus right and I guess those seats are for needy people like old people etc. I mean, its common sense what, which old people or needy people would like to climb the stairs to sit at those sits above. (I am talking about the one decker bus k.) So there was this PREGNANT lady and I was really sure that she was pregnant and not having a bloated stomach.
Than on those seats that were for the needy people, were sitting a old lady, a wearing uniform girl, a not very old lady who dozed off and a guy who is listening to his headphones. As I mentioned, the bus was full with people than there was obviously no seats and this pregnant lady stood in front of those seats expecting at least one of them get up and give up their seat. Obviously it wouldn't be the old lady or the lady who dozed off. But guess what, those two teens didn't even bothered. The uniform girl was busy gossiping with her friend on the phone and the guy was just enjoying his music. Bleahs. What if the bus had a brake and the pregnant lady hit one of the poles or something? It is like so dangerous. The lady had to stand for one stop before she could find a seat. Even though it is one stop but it is still very dangerous.
And don't ask me why I did not go up and advice them to give up their seat, the bus was obviously too full. I feel so annoyed by those people and I just stared at them hoping that they would at least feel it. But its okay, God still loves them.

Actually I have fear of giving up my seats because I am afraid what if the person is not pregnant bus just having a fleshy stomach? You will feel like damn paiseh if you give up your seats to the wrong people. Wahahah.

Yes, I love my Jesus deep down in my heart.

Jesus loves you!

I think sometimes, our life needs to pace down and look at something simple.
Maybe you think you would not need to but I need.